i want to vocalize how much i hate the color purple so that in 3 days when its probably like my favorite color we can look back and laugh
did you ever go to school? art school or academic type stuff? you live such a wild artsy life and personhood, i want to do things like that....but......worry i'm getting stuck in concrete roles and in academia/professional responsibltityt
i love that i get this after posting a picture of myself wearing a red beret i am so wild but yes i did go to school, i studied interior architecture but i left after getting an associates degree instead of staying for my bachelors because i felt so restricted trying to please my professors. i would always get lots of comments like “that scale is too large” or “you used too much color” and it just felt really subjective and like i was compromising myself to please people with a limited perspective and i feared that any real success in that field would require a compromise of self that i wasn’t prepared to submit to. the job i have now comes with basically unlimited freedom but it pays almost nothing and isn’t creative in any way but i get to live my life apologetically which is a huge luxury. so its like i can’t always afford to eat but i can wear clumps of styrofoam glued to my face whenever i want?? its all about priorities and i think its a fine line that i am still trying to find some balance in because i wouldn’t really say my current situation is exactly “working”
there is a lot of truth to saying “you can do whatever you want” it just doesn’t really deliver the complexity of human desire. so my advice is to learn about yourself and find out what you want. personally, self expression rates higher than monetary success and that may or may not be true for you -i paused writing about this to listen to “if you seek amy” and now i’ve lost my train of thought crap
i feel like the word “stuck” is an excuse like anytime i’ve ever felt stuck is was always the outcome of my own choices that were usually fear based and fear is such a waste of time sorry this is so poorly written
hey how is that thing with the possessed person going?
I have a priest coming over to “bless” my apartment tomorrow afternoon but that guy is still going to be crazy and still live in my building I just don’t want to wake up one night being stabbed because “the voices told [him] to” LORD